apparently i am a horrid friend. news to me. and i am horrid at everything...once again news to me.

sigh, i hate drama. argh.

buuuut, i was pissed the other day cuz my ex-keyboardist quit the band! and she was overreacting! i was like....woah. it's a good thing she quit. (we were gonna kick her out anyway. ) but wow, people have issues. and i'm not pissed she quit. i'm pissed at what she said when we quit. she went one about being professional and how we're amateurs and the band will never make it. ok you do not diss my band and get the fuck away with it. (i got revenge, dont worry)

but yeah it was all bull shit. she was pissed cuz we aren't doing what she wanted. she wants to be all screamo and all...but we're like....no. (screamo gives me headaches after one song. hellz no) she's way too melodramatic. and she said all that unprofessional stuff cuz she "knows big time managers" and shit. all of whom she has failed to name. soooo, whatevs. she's a bitch. she can go do whatever. like die in a hole, that's a great suggestion.

but (i've started these all with but, lolz) i am officially overwhelmed. i was signed up for an ensemble competition by my teacher...AND THE SIGN UP DATE WAS LAST MONTH! D: she's so teeny and cute...i couldn't say no....but i have to know the song by next week. oh jeez. and it's 12 pages long, and the alto sings the most. and guess what i am?!?!? sigh..... i cant even look at sheet music for like two more hours. ugh, and my teacher hooked me in when she said "we need an alto that sings well, has perfect pitch, and knows her stuff!" and i just melted a bit. she barely compliments people as a single person. like ever. sooo...

my local band friends rock my world! (anyone here live in michigan? send a note and i'll tell you about their next show)

i feel so official now. they ask me favors that no one else can do (cuz i know djs, muhahahaha) and i get super special surprises (they're playing at my kickass party in june. we have it all planned so they wont go on tour during that week. ) (oh song dedications are awesome and so are hugs! XD i'm super huggable and the basist and i are always like "homie! give me a hug!!!" XD [i'm his homie, lolz. he's Homie G, lol] and advice on band stuff helps soooooo much!)

i've still been super sad lately though. music is my only passion right now...idk why. i dont want to write or sketch or take photos.... wah!

awesome songs of the week: jersey - mayday parade
black cat - mayday parade
again - flyleaf
all that i've got - the used
only exception - paramore